tried to stop 2 or three times ending 4yrs ago.
gave up "saw fireworks, when closed eyes to sleep.
it's torture to run out which has happened 3 times.
can't believe this ie: commonly prescribed anxiety
med could ruin life or do 6/day/eternal.
been to best detox centers 28day program in center city took serax after
100% detox back home
before flying directly to minn. 5 days before released -0- serax. felt
really ok. but feel back after a few months. maybe it was the brochure i
read in the center city, minn bookstore, "many people hooked on benzo's
choose not to ever stop after a few attemps...it's so horrible....or the
comment some one made in a behavioral therapy class a month ago regarding
benzo memory ie: you
stop, then if and when you ever start again (even 10 years later) the body
remembers the dose you left off at ie: 6mg/day and starts running up from
there. (this memory comment just adds to the hopelessness whether it's
true or not does not matter. Finally during an hbo methadone special last
night my ex-wife quoted a interviewee as saying benzo's are the worst they
hook you to the bone like nothing else !
Hey I now it's bad bad bad...but want to beat this thing and get on with a
more fullfilling life. Lost job...bipolar diagnosis major swings
especially
on manic side. At 53 I stayed within the coral of public safety...but want
more ie: be all I can be, like they say in the marines.
Success stories anyone ??? I'm overdosed on failed
and continuing painfull after effects. My will is strong and maybe this
hbo quote (approx.)Has called me to renewed action. Please help my will is
strong and if I can properly channel some manic
energy...i may be able to go over the top. Somewhat kidding about
harnessing mania...i no this will be tough and a fight every step of the
way...i know any thing is possible but anyone know
a success story or something like one to help get me going ? please help
it's time to beat this human/chemical dependency problem...i'm up for the
challenge as mentioned do not have work schedule or job, so can focus,
welcome new positive distractions whatever works.
again pls pls help...it's time if it can be done.
I'm a soldier in Christ's Army, but have not been in active duty for a
while...maybe there's answer
in this fact somewhere. Faith, prayer and practice should be able to beat
all of earths challenges.
I respectfully await all replys...rich
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