Maybe this is something I should tell my shrink, who I haven't seen in a
few
weeks. But noone here knows who the hell I am, so WTF. I'm posting to
alt.drugs.pot because pot is psychedelic, if only mildly so.
I just woke up from a dream which was both happy and sad. In this dream, I
was with a bunch a friends, having a blast on psychedelics, mushrooms and
LSD in particular. I haven't had a full-blown psychedelic experience in
about a year now, so it's not too surprising that I'd have such a dream.
But
everyone in this dream was in the 18-25 crowd, college students mostly.
But
what made a lasting impression on me was the ending of the dream. Like I
said, everyone was enjoying themselves, having a great time --- but then
the
party ended. Everyone eventually left with their degrees and quit doing
any
kind of psychedelic. They had their fun, and then they went off to join
the
"establishment," as some put it.
I woke up and was almost crying. I'll be 33 in a few weeks. Both bro and
sis
took the exact path as the people in the dream; 'nuff said. I've never
been
to a rave, and have only been fortunate enough to get hold of LSD a very
few
times. Part of me feels like I've sorta missed out, and part of me thinks
I've just gotten too ****ing old to have any right to want anything like
that, that "trip drugs" are only for the young, that by this time you
either
do more harmful things like cocaine or heroin or booze, or you quit.
Why I'd get so emotional over this I have no idea. Maybe I should just try
to get some pot and chill out. Or maybe I should just accept my age and
move
on, as it were. I mean, even Timothy Leary didn't do any psychedelics for
the last twenty years of his life and said that psychedelics are a good
school, but they're one to graduate from. At least that's what someone
told
me. Could anyone, particularly those over thirty, respond?
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